If you’re reading this it’s not a coincidence.

Hi, I’m Allen Ray and I don’t get any mail at all. I have no family at all. I am pretty much alone and that gets pretty hard. You can wake up in the middle of the night with tears in your eyes and you just know it’s your soul crying out for comfort. It’s a pain no words can explain. I’ve never been lonelier in my entire life.

I’m not a bad person. I lost control of my life years and years ago and I just kinda gave up on it all. I ended up losing everything I ever thought I loved, and life just didn’t make sense to me after that.

I could never begin to explain to you in these few words or less what it’s like to be me or to be in here like I am. But I feel buried alive. It’s just like I’m in a grave and I can’t get out. I can’t see beyond these walls.

I know you’re out there. I can feel you out there. It’s just been impossible for you to find me until now.

See, I guess for some people this would be an easy thing to do. You write down a few words, put down a few dollars, but not for me. For me It’s much more than that. Just getting to the opportunity to do it is a blessing from God and I see it and you, as nothing less than his predestined plan for me.

You’re a gift, precious in his sight. So yeah, it’s fair to say I take what I’m doing here pretty seriously. See if you’re reading this it’s not a coincidence. There’s no such thing as that. You didn’t accidently stumble across me. Our paths have been laid down before us. I need you… and God knows it.

Thats a pretty heavy statement, I know… and since honesty is the best policy I’ll lay it all on the line here. I’m not just hoping to find a Pen Pal. I don’t want to be just one of the ten people you write. I want to be the one you write. I want to write you every day.

I’m really praying for that once in a lifetime kind of thing. That one special someone that’s finally gonna make everything I’ve ever went through, make perfect sense.

I don’t talk on the phones. I don’t go to visits and everyone else around me does. I’m unable to put into words how that makes me feel. When everyone around you has so much and you have nothing at all. And you know if you did how much you would cherish it.

Nothing hurts as much as being forgotten. It’s easy to have faith when you have everything else your heart desires. But when all you have is your heart, and no one else seems to want it, walking in faith gets a lot harder to do. But I do it, daily and even though I know God has me in the palm of his hands, every day is a struggle for me. Because even though I have God’s grace to get me through, there’s still this huge emptiness inside of me with no one there.

I wasn’t made to be alone. I don’t like being alone. But since I’m here confessing let me confess it all. This started as a desperate act for me. I mean, how can something that isn’t there hurt so much? And its gonna take a certain kind of person to understand what I mean by that. I have no more options. All my hope is built into this. And it has taken God over 20 years to open this door.

It’s been over 20 years since I gotten a letter. it’s been over 20 years since I’ve had a visit… I’ve been in prison 35 years.

All I can say is he’s been preparing me for this. I know he’s about to do something amazing in my life. I can feel it. He’s been equipping me and preparing me to hold on and to be able to hold on to what he’s about to do. What you’re seeing of me today is the best version of me there’s ever been. Mentally, physically, and spiritually. Today I am ready to meet you (smile!).

This picture was taken on July 28th, 2024. I’m 55 years old. I’m 6’2 and I weigh 220 pounds. 95% of my body is covered in tattoos. I still have all my pieces and parts, and everything works pretty well, I guess. I wouldn’t let the dust on bottle fool you (smile!). I could put 10 pictures up here if I had them. And none of them could reveal to you what’s in my heart. None could tell you what my hopes and dreams are, but I’ll tell you.

I’m hoping to be found by a person who can look beyond the cover of a book because that all I see in that picture. A person who will be able to get into what the story is all about.

There is a difference between writing someone and really getting to know that someone. I want to get to know you and I want you to get to know me.
And I don’t know what other guys get on here and say but darling I’m not the other guys. I don’t have anything to boast or brag about. I’ve been locked up so long I’m really inexperienced at life.

Obviously If I had ever been in a truly meaningful relationship, I’d still be in it right? So I’m just me. But I will always treat you with respect, honor, and above all else love… and one day I pray we’ll look back on all of this and see what a perfect way this was to begin, what tomorrow has to bring all while giving the glory to God for making it grow.

It doesn’t matter how old you are, what color you are, or where you are. If you even think you’d like to write me, you gotta write me. (smile!) I’m gonna write you back. I’m gonna make you laugh. I’m gonna make you smile. You’re gonna feel like a big feather is tickling you from the inside out, that’s a fact.

Just imagine what it’s like to be in a big bouncy house up on a cloud. That’s where I’m gonna take you with each and every letter.
Look my circumstances aren’t sad. The lord’s timing is perfect. Believe me when I tell you he has his hands all over this. It’s time to rejoice.

Ultimately what I hope for is to meet a woman that loves God more than she could ever love me. But I’m only human. I’d like to meet someone, fall in love, and live happily ever after. And I bet I wish for that more than anyone else in this world. If that’s not you it’s okay. Our paths were still meant to cross.

If you read this far. there is something uniquely special about you and I want to meet you and the most important thing I can tell you about myself right now, is how to write me.

Now I know that Penpals.buzz does a great job of covering all of this but it’s on my heart to do it myself as well…

If you go to www.Securustech.net you can sign up for the free Securus App that will enable you to send a letter, like an email, directly to me tablet. I’ll get it the same day. It’s called E-Messaging and by doing that it will enable me to instantly write you back to your phone or computer in the form of an email. I believe it even pops up under your emails. That is the quickest and easiest way to respond to me.

If you write a handwritten letter and it has to first go to that Po Box 660400 address in Dallas. That is the T.D.C.J mail sorting center. There they will eventually, and I stress the word, eventually scan your letter and post it to my tablet for viewing and saving. I hear that’s a very slow process.

The last thing I want is for you to write me a handwritten letter, sending it to that P.O Box and it take weeks for me to get it. You might start thinking I should have gotten it weeks ago and just didn’t write back…! and that would be awful.

I can write you handwritten letter and they’ll go directly from me to you and I will. I love to write. All I need is an address and I can even talk on the phone and do video visits too!! or so I am told.

But for now, the E-Messaging at www.Securustech.net is the way to go.

I’ll write you back the same day I get it and probably again later that night and then the next day and probably the next day too (Smile!).

Remember, you’re uniquely special which means there are uniquely special things about you… and I hope, and I pray, that I’m given the opportunity to learn and discover what all those things are (Smile!)

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading me till the end. I’ll be dreaming of you. X.O.X.O

May God bless you,

Allen Ray